**Make A Wish**

Its not 11:11 But I want to make a wish.

I wish life could be easy.

There at 12:05 I made a wish.

I wish my father could see how happy he makes me. That I was important enough to help pay for his daughters wedding. Instead of having this blow out 8000 dollar wedding that they are having because their friends are complaining about not his kids he didn't tell. I wish he wouldn't lie to me either. Somethings you just cant have.

I wish I could make three of my best friends happy. One...I wish she knew I cared. Not that I ignore her. Two...I wish she knew I still love her and want to be a part of her life. That she means the world to me. Three...I wish she would notice me. Yeah we hang out all the time but I feel she doesn't notice I am there. That I go out of my way to make her happy and see the tweets that her day sucked and Im alone...after I spent the whole day with her and tried so hard to make her laugh. 

I wish things with my finance were easier. I wish I could plan a wedding and have a set date. Because now its more than likely not going to be the 17th. I wish I knew when I could be with him. so off to the JP we go. When ever he can get down. With no honey moon. I wish I can talk to him for more than two hours a day for the next year.

I also just wish....my brother was home. 

Please can my wish come true....12:15....im wishing again.

P.S. I wish my tears would stop....