11..I hate

I honestly miss my country life....
I still do from drive down through the country and miss going muddin!

I hate that!!! 


I wish I could still go and ride around. It was so much fun...and stress free. Getting down and dirty was a blast!

DAY 10...ATL girls

Alex Gaskarth and Zack Marrick

• WE do things a little differently 
• We end up acting high and drunk at Casa when we are perfectly fine
• We try on dresses at the mall for no reason
•  We sing a little to loud
• dance to crazy
• have "That's what she said contets"
• though ice or food down one another's shirts
• fall on our butts ice skiating to much
• jam out to Brittany Spears, N'Sync, and the Backstreet Boys 
• Freak out, Jump up and down when we see one another
• WE ARE SOLIDER GIRLS!!!!!

WE ARE ALL TIME LOW GIRLS

day 9... You and me babe

**ARE STUCK LIKE GLUE**

Caitlin Marie            &&           Meg Elizabeth 

Caty and I have been the best of friends since the 6th grade. We have been through the toughest time and the best of times. Once we got in high school we got even closer. We swore up and down that we'd be better of with out men because they caused us to much of a hassle. But sooner or later I met Blake and feel in love which in turn landed her with Dan. Our now fiancée's. 
We have delt with our share of heartache. All the guys shes been with though have thought her so much. The main lesson, taking care of yourself...not just your man. I'm glad she has found her solider now. She has introduced me to Porter and took me to the lake the day after he dumped me to look at guys in swim trunks. :) We had an amazing time. 
I love this girl to death. She is pregnant now and I am so happy for her. She is a wonderful woman, and will be wife and mother. I still hope to be the Auntie.
You see, with her and stress its not good. She tends to push the loved ones away. I should know better than to get mad at her. I do it too. I feel bad to finally getting tired of it because I miss my sister and my soon to be nephew or niece. (I still say she's going to have twin girls ;) haha) 
She can be spacy, and judgemental, and has anxity but I love this woman anyway. She is also a good friend who tells it like it is and will go get you if your drunk at a party, she plays the music loud and drives crazy making me laugh. 


I want to make things right with her before I go to move to Japan and I might not see her for a good while. 
I have no clue what I will do if I never see her again. 


Love&&missyou

day 8...giggles

[[Good Laughs]]

One day at school my car decided my day was to boring and needed some excitement. My battery died because I always listen to my music on that first setting when the car is idoling...(I think that is the word...) so I called my friend who was across campus to come jump it for me. She was already laughing and making fun of me. 

Well I hit my steering wheel mad and pissed when my car alarm when off.

I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I HAD A CAR ALARM!!!! 

After 3 years of having this car my alarm has never gone off. I couldn't move from my seat in my car..I was trapped in my car. How crazy is that. I couldn't hit my steering wheel hard...I couldn't open my door....turn my key at all or in or out. ANYTHING. finally after all the looks and stares I just got out and stood to wait on Caty.

She pulled up but had to park in the grass and sidewalk because people where on both sides of me. that was the funniest thing ever. john (our friend) stopped after seeing us do this and came over laughing. We finally got it started but the alarm still was going off. We just left it and Porter has to come disable it. 

Did I mention the campus police and worker trucks kept passing and staring; never once stopping to see if I needed help. 

**Make A Wish**

Its not 11:11 But I want to make a wish.

I wish life could be easy.

There at 12:05 I made a wish.

I wish my father could see how happy he makes me. That I was important enough to help pay for his daughters wedding. Instead of having this blow out 8000 dollar wedding that they are having because their friends are complaining about not his kids he didn't tell. I wish he wouldn't lie to me either. Somethings you just cant have.

I wish I could make three of my best friends happy. One...I wish she knew I cared. Not that I ignore her. Two...I wish she knew I still love her and want to be a part of her life. That she means the world to me. Three...I wish she would notice me. Yeah we hang out all the time but I feel she doesn't notice I am there. That I go out of my way to make her happy and see the tweets that her day sucked and Im alone...after I spent the whole day with her and tried so hard to make her laugh. 

I wish things with my finance were easier. I wish I could plan a wedding and have a set date. Because now its more than likely not going to be the 17th. I wish I knew when I could be with him. so off to the JP we go. When ever he can get down. With no honey moon. I wish I can talk to him for more than two hours a day for the next year.

I also just wish....my brother was home. 

Please can my wish come true....12:15....im wishing again.

P.S. I wish my tears would stop.... 

orginal....

[[Doodle Bear of 1994]]




THIS BEAR 
has gotten me through THE hardest times of my life. I use to sleep with it every night....until I was like 12 or so. I cry with this bear in my arms tightly and still, from time to time, sleep with her at night. (in case you haven't noticed I never named her.) Yes, me a 20 almost 21 year old still sleeps with her teddy. I'm not ashamed. She has countless amount of my tears, laughs, night mares, and more. 
Even still, she has never been put away from out of my room. Never in a box in my closet. Only to go to Blake. In term of giving him my heart...my doodle went with it. I still cant bear to send her to Japan to be with him. As much as I want to...Its hard for me to do. :/


Doodle is my heart and holds my secrets. It will be something I pass down to my little girl. I will have a boy and a girl.


I love my bear. <3

I'm no beauty queen....

You know, I don't think I want to trades places anyone. I have an amazing life. 
for these simple reason.

• I have a wonderful role model....my mommy!!!!!!
• my bother is like my best friend.
• My friends that I have are the BEST! 
• I get a killer discount at American Eagle :)) so hot clothes
• Im getting married to my PERFECT man...a U.S Navy mp
• I have a roof over my head. Food to eat (though im dieting) 

Though I do have my faults. But they make up who I am.

I do

• sing a little to loud.
• can't spell to save my life.
• can't do math.
• sure I swerve while driving a little.
• forget things.
• trust to easily.
• love to much.

But these faults make me who I am today. I love myself most days. My fiancée loves me. My family loves me. So I'm ohkay with who I am. :)

But....If I could change with ANYONE. I'd say someone in Japan on base so I could be with my baby.