**Love is Infinite**

There are a few people in my life I will do ANYTHING for. 

My mom 

Kimberly

Samantha

Jake

Blake 

Ethan

Jacob

These people in my life are so wonderful and I have no idea what I will do with out them. 

Though i do get upset and fustrated with them sometimes, I still love them with everything I have. I really hope they know that. 

I got into a fight with one today, I regret it...but she is still my best friend and amazing. I truely do think she is a wonderful person with so much to give to this world. I am not just one of her other friends, i hope she realizes, and that I am here to stay by her side no matter what. She is going through a really rough time and derserves all the happiness. 

I am going hunting for a place to marry my wonderful soon to be hubby tomorrow with my mother I am so excited. 

Sam graduated high school today and I am soooooo proud of her. : ) she has done a wonderful job. 

Ethan and Jacob....well they are the boys. Only settleing down. I am happy they have found someone wonderful and will be happy. I told them so. haha

Jake is about to graduate AIT here soon. Time needs to hurry...I want my brother home. 

31 December 2011 (Military style)

I am going to become a military wife to my amazing Navel MP...Then is when my life will change.
In all honesty I am ready to get out and begin my life. In Cabot I feel I am a plant that needs to spread my roots more. That I need to be moved to a bigger pot.
I love my friends I have here, and all my family, and I hate saying this, but I'm getting tired and bored here. I've done so much and lived...I need more of an adventure than going to climb some other mountain or to a theater or bowling ally or even a mall. I want more. I want to be able to take my friends on some. I am just ready to leave.
I think this is why im so aggregated all the time. I need to get away. Maybe bring just one person and go away and talk for a few days. Go camping. just get away from the general Cabot/North Little Rock area.

**TWLOHA**

 Jamie Tworkowski is an amazing person on this whole freaking planet.
He started the movement. I love him for it. It gives people hope that everything will be ok. That we are worth more than we credit ourselves. Starting with Renee and leading to a non profit organization that has earned millions of dollars.
He has helped my best friend with her past and she ended up to me when I needed help and showed me this amazing man and what he does. I now believe there is hope and more to live for. I want to go to a speech of his one day and hear the stories with my friend.

I wear my bracelet she gave me on my wrist I stared at to remind me of everything.
To remember why I don't want to harm myself.
Why I live.
To love those who love me.

Kimberly Ferhenbach 
&
Megan Thomas


Were saved by 


Jamie Tworkowski

Sailor Wife to Be

Every kiss begins with K. Kay's.My engagement ring

January 7th, 2008 A young girl pulls into Pizza Pro upset with her parents because she had to go pick up dinner. A young guy opened the door for me with a big smile.
"How are you?" 
"Fine." She brushed passed him with her hands in her green puffy jacket not paying much attention. She grabbed dinner and walked back out to her car having this feeling that she will see him again. 
Sure enough he was out there in his step dad's truck with his window down waiting on her. 
"Hey, how old are you?" He asked. She sat her pizza and drink down.
                                                                                             "17" she replied puzzled
                                                                                             "Can I have your number?"
Thats all it took. She hesently gave him her number and drove off. 
It wasn't until later she got his name. "My names Blake by the way."


Its been three years later and we are now engaged. We broke up for a year but a little while after we broke up...we began acting like we were dating again...It took all I had not to say I love you when we got off the phone. I have always loved him. He is my world...has my heart and always will. I have no idea what I would do with out him. 
I am to marry him as soon as we can. I personally and hoping for December 31, 2011. Have my first new years eve kiss  ever, as my first bride and groom kiss. Through the years we have never has our new years eve kiss. I want to spend the rest of my life with U.S. Navy Sailor MP. Be his Cinderella and Princess and Baby Girl for the rest of my life. I never want to be with out him. I have my engagement ring and its beautiful!! I always look down at it and smile because I know I am closer to being with him and spending the rest of my life with him.

13 Actors

ALL TIME LOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I do not care what you think of them. To me they are amazing!

1. They stay true to who they are
2. They put on the best show EVER
3. They have been in a band since they were freshmen
4. They write their own music. 
5. Never broken up and they are 23 now. Thats rare
6. Always keep their stage men..never changed
7. They mess around with eachother and never get mad
8. They truly love their fans
9. They collect bras women throw on stage to them
10. The music is AMAZING and has meaning
11. They are hot. 

12 Back Roads and Water

Windows down. Music blasting!

I love pointless drives. If I am ever mad I just go. Just me or with a friend. Rides down the country back roads I have learned are the best. Thats the only thing good about my ex. She showed them do me. I remember one of the best was with my friend...we were both pissed and down down some to Carlisle  and it had just rained so puddles were everywhere.We hit a road that was filled and just dove splashing everywhere with the windows down. I stuck out my had and just felt the water hit me. 
Water and rain and the second thing I love. I  Cant get enough of the water. :) Lakes are the  best.

I love driving or riding around in a car! It relaxes me.

11..I hate

I honestly miss my country life....
I still do from drive down through the country and miss going muddin!

I hate that!!! 


I wish I could still go and ride around. It was so much fun...and stress free. Getting down and dirty was a blast!

DAY 10...ATL girls

Alex Gaskarth and Zack Marrick

• WE do things a little differently 
• We end up acting high and drunk at Casa when we are perfectly fine
• We try on dresses at the mall for no reason
•  We sing a little to loud
• dance to crazy
• have "That's what she said contets"
• though ice or food down one another's shirts
• fall on our butts ice skiating to much
• jam out to Brittany Spears, N'Sync, and the Backstreet Boys 
• Freak out, Jump up and down when we see one another
• WE ARE SOLIDER GIRLS!!!!!

WE ARE ALL TIME LOW GIRLS

day 9... You and me babe

**ARE STUCK LIKE GLUE**

Caitlin Marie            &&           Meg Elizabeth 

Caty and I have been the best of friends since the 6th grade. We have been through the toughest time and the best of times. Once we got in high school we got even closer. We swore up and down that we'd be better of with out men because they caused us to much of a hassle. But sooner or later I met Blake and feel in love which in turn landed her with Dan. Our now fiancée's. 
We have delt with our share of heartache. All the guys shes been with though have thought her so much. The main lesson, taking care of yourself...not just your man. I'm glad she has found her solider now. She has introduced me to Porter and took me to the lake the day after he dumped me to look at guys in swim trunks. :) We had an amazing time. 
I love this girl to death. She is pregnant now and I am so happy for her. She is a wonderful woman, and will be wife and mother. I still hope to be the Auntie.
You see, with her and stress its not good. She tends to push the loved ones away. I should know better than to get mad at her. I do it too. I feel bad to finally getting tired of it because I miss my sister and my soon to be nephew or niece. (I still say she's going to have twin girls ;) haha) 
She can be spacy, and judgemental, and has anxity but I love this woman anyway. She is also a good friend who tells it like it is and will go get you if your drunk at a party, she plays the music loud and drives crazy making me laugh. 


I want to make things right with her before I go to move to Japan and I might not see her for a good while. 
I have no clue what I will do if I never see her again. 


Love&&missyou

day 8...giggles

[[Good Laughs]]

One day at school my car decided my day was to boring and needed some excitement. My battery died because I always listen to my music on that first setting when the car is idoling...(I think that is the word...) so I called my friend who was across campus to come jump it for me. She was already laughing and making fun of me. 

Well I hit my steering wheel mad and pissed when my car alarm when off.

I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I HAD A CAR ALARM!!!! 

After 3 years of having this car my alarm has never gone off. I couldn't move from my seat in my car..I was trapped in my car. How crazy is that. I couldn't hit my steering wheel hard...I couldn't open my door....turn my key at all or in or out. ANYTHING. finally after all the looks and stares I just got out and stood to wait on Caty.

She pulled up but had to park in the grass and sidewalk because people where on both sides of me. that was the funniest thing ever. john (our friend) stopped after seeing us do this and came over laughing. We finally got it started but the alarm still was going off. We just left it and Porter has to come disable it. 

Did I mention the campus police and worker trucks kept passing and staring; never once stopping to see if I needed help. 

**Make A Wish**

Its not 11:11 But I want to make a wish.

I wish life could be easy.

There at 12:05 I made a wish.

I wish my father could see how happy he makes me. That I was important enough to help pay for his daughters wedding. Instead of having this blow out 8000 dollar wedding that they are having because their friends are complaining about not his kids he didn't tell. I wish he wouldn't lie to me either. Somethings you just cant have.

I wish I could make three of my best friends happy. One...I wish she knew I cared. Not that I ignore her. Two...I wish she knew I still love her and want to be a part of her life. That she means the world to me. Three...I wish she would notice me. Yeah we hang out all the time but I feel she doesn't notice I am there. That I go out of my way to make her happy and see the tweets that her day sucked and Im alone...after I spent the whole day with her and tried so hard to make her laugh. 

I wish things with my finance were easier. I wish I could plan a wedding and have a set date. Because now its more than likely not going to be the 17th. I wish I knew when I could be with him. so off to the JP we go. When ever he can get down. With no honey moon. I wish I can talk to him for more than two hours a day for the next year.

I also just wish....my brother was home. 

Please can my wish come true....12:15....im wishing again.

P.S. I wish my tears would stop.... 

orginal....

[[Doodle Bear of 1994]]




THIS BEAR 
has gotten me through THE hardest times of my life. I use to sleep with it every night....until I was like 12 or so. I cry with this bear in my arms tightly and still, from time to time, sleep with her at night. (in case you haven't noticed I never named her.) Yes, me a 20 almost 21 year old still sleeps with her teddy. I'm not ashamed. She has countless amount of my tears, laughs, night mares, and more. 
Even still, she has never been put away from out of my room. Never in a box in my closet. Only to go to Blake. In term of giving him my heart...my doodle went with it. I still cant bear to send her to Japan to be with him. As much as I want to...Its hard for me to do. :/


Doodle is my heart and holds my secrets. It will be something I pass down to my little girl. I will have a boy and a girl.


I love my bear. <3

I'm no beauty queen....

You know, I don't think I want to trades places anyone. I have an amazing life. 
for these simple reason.

• I have a wonderful role model....my mommy!!!!!!
• my bother is like my best friend.
• My friends that I have are the BEST! 
• I get a killer discount at American Eagle :)) so hot clothes
• Im getting married to my PERFECT man...a U.S Navy mp
• I have a roof over my head. Food to eat (though im dieting) 

Though I do have my faults. But they make up who I am.

I do

• sing a little to loud.
• can't spell to save my life.
• can't do math.
• sure I swerve while driving a little.
• forget things.
• trust to easily.
• love to much.

But these faults make me who I am today. I love myself most days. My fiancée loves me. My family loves me. So I'm ohkay with who I am. :)

But....If I could change with ANYONE. I'd say someone in Japan on base so I could be with my baby.

 

Day 5 Live on Memories

What-A-Burger

My dad lives in Dallas...

My brother and I love Whataburger!

Everytime we drive down we stop and eat here in Texarcana. 

No questions. No wondering what to get.

It's the same everytime.

I love the drive because Jake and I just sit and talk. 

About everything. 

Litsten to music. 

And chill. 

It's the best ever. 

day 4...Let me see your Poker face :)

Good Friends. G.O.O. T.I.M.E.S.


Craig's place is always the fun house to be at. You come home reaking of cigs, and good memories to last a life time. 
My favorite time was poker with Craig, Dan, Taylor, Tyler, Jake, Matt, and myself. I creamed the boys then Jake did. We laughed so hard so many times and told stories all night. Of everything and anything. :) It was one of Jakes last few nights in town. I always love hanging out with him. And the boys are amazing. I love them all. 
These boys always had a good time and I loved it. The only parties I have ever been too. I feel safe and well looked after....even if they are drunk. I know nothing will ever happen to me here. I can also go sneak out and talk to Jessica. :)

day two...Hannah Bannah

 [Hannah Victoria Tiption]

She has been my best friend since the third grade. Not very often do you find someone who has been in someone else's life. We may not talk often but we always manage to keep one another up dated.

Moving, boys, school, drama and all we still never not been friends.

I love this girl to death and don't know what I would do with out here. Sure we need to hang out way more than we do and call more often but its never stopped us from not being friends and caring.

I can always recall being in the 5th grade and out smarting the teacher by writing notes to each other because she made the mistake of putting us next to each other. I still from time to time come across the note book and always take time to sit down and read it. We would talk about everything...boys (
Daniel or Derrick), some television show that was on,  and so much more. 

She has an amazing guy and I't getting married but who cares. We still have to approve of the others boy. (I do approve of the boy now:) so long as he treats her right). She will continue to be in my life. I love you Hannah!

Got a Secret...NCIS will bust you...

Pretty Little Liars is an amazing show! So addicting and hot male actors. 

Telling secrets doesn't always set you free. :)  Hush little liars. -A

No need to explain. :) 

The men are hot.

Story is fun. 

Love needs to happen though.

Fifteen

Fifteen Facts! 

1. I some times wish I had a different name. Megan is to common.

2. One of the only things I like about myself....my eyes.

3. I am too suborn for my own good. 

4. I have a lot of friends but only a few close. 

5. My brother is my best friend first. Siblings second.

6. Not a lot of people know much about me.

7. I love my mom more than anything.

8. My bestie and I have too many names for eachother.

9. I do more wrong than right.

10.I am in love with a Navy MP.

11. I like odd numbers because I feel they are unloved by many

12. I can not spell to save my life.

13. <-- is my lucky number because its everybody's unlucky #.

14. I am sometimes OCD...mainly when I feel like it.

15. I never wear matching socks...it makes me unique.

Daisy and Dog Tag

The two of you can Drive me up the wall. 

Make me so mad I want to scream and yell and punch a wall sometimes. 

You two can be such a pain and hassle. 

But

I would put a hole in the cealing anyday.

Yell and bleed from the wall in a heart beat.

And have that pain in my butt anytime.

My life has been so wonderful because of you two. 

Though you are these things, You are also my reason for living.

For everything that I do.

To my Daisy,

You are who I want so desperately to be. 

Who I have looked up to and fallowed in your footsteps (literally almost) 

You give me hope that I can hopefully one day become a role model to my own daughter.

It is hard in words for me to day how I feel about you.

Wrighting for me is easier. 

I am a door mat to everyone.

I live to please them. Mostly.

You, I do want to please more than anyone. 

Its hard to do though sometimes. 

I love you to pieces and more. I have no idea what I would do with out you. 

Yes. I argue and get annoyed but I try so hard to be perfect, but I am not

So I feel like I fail. Yes, you tell everyone how wonderful I am...

But thats when I do something wonderful.

You are the number one person in my life. Just know that. 

My Dog Tag. 

You are my best friend.

You have been there for me your whole life. 

I have always wanted you to learn from my mistakes. 

I have wanted to be someone you look up to. Even though I'm shorter

You are the number two person in my life. 

I am so proud of what you have become and I wish it was because I was there to guide you too it. 

I have done nothing but enjoy watching you grow. 

In someways though, I have learned from you. 

To always be there for your friends. To defend the ones you love.

We have always been able to tell each other anything and everything. I love that. 

People never get the chance growing up, the way we have grown up. 

I am so glad we have.

You two are my everthing. 

My tattoo will be my Daisy and Dog Tag.

                                                                                      

 We are just that cool to text together. :)

Rescue is Possible.

So, this being my first blog. I am just gonna talk. 
I have the most wonderful family in the world. But I wanna let two people know that I consider them family even though they are not my blood family. 
Samantha Weldon. She is my sister-in-law basically. My brother (whom is my best friend) is totally and absolutely in love with her. Because of this I have come to know her and love her myself. The night before my brothers big surprise, I was surprised to gain a sister. :) Best Weekend of my life. I know she is always there for me and always will be. I love you Sammi!
Kimberly Fehrenbach. We are two people who just clicked. She has had a rough past and I, in a way, am glad she did. Because if she hadn't I wouldn't have gotten to meet a wonderful person who I am glad to call my friend. She has helped me get through a hard time in my life and be glad for what I do have. Which isn't a lot besides some friends and family. I love you Kimmi!
You see, my best friend/sister left me. These two girls are my life line. I am so thankful everyday that I have them and call them my....family. :) They will never fully understand how much I appreciate them and what all they unknowingly do for me. 
They have rescued me. They showed me Rescue is Possible. 

I love my family.